Confusion........

Seems life is runnin at the speed of life these days without a kill switch..... 

Much is happenin even more is changin and my kids are growin up and leavin home, I don't dare post a lot of what's happenin or how i'm feelin ....If i did no one I know would be speakin to me lol.

Let's just say in some aspects life is all that I dreamed of and so much more and in others it's sorely lackin what I want and need ........

Mostly I'm just tired of handlin it all for everyone. I run a 36 hour day ( at least) in 24 hours everyday it seems. I get lil if any time for me and what I want and need from life and, an maid to feel guilty as fuck when I take that time out.Some I have to all but beg to get some time with and others I can't seem to get to even let me grab my 4 hours of sleep a day. 

I've been told before I expect too much out of those that I love. Maybe I do, all I truly expect is as much as I'm willin to give .... maybe it is too much to ask.........

Life is revolvin as it does and I'm findin it a bit hard to deal with........ 

The confusion that roams through my mind is a never endin roller coaster these days ....

Maybe someday I'll figure it all out and learn how to control the madness , until I guess I shall continue to live in this land of confusion...........