Alone.....

I sot here tonight, alone, the house quiet......... A perfect night for rest, to catch up on tv reruns, or finish the book I'm readin or just to chill and relax in a hot bubble bath.

Instead I find myself out of sorts with the quiet and lack of commotion around the house. I've always lived my life, career and personal, for others. Although caregivin is still what my career consists of in part, it's on a much smaller scale than I'm used to.  I shall forever and always be mom but there again it's different, I'm now a mom to Adult children and they don't need me the way they once did. 

instead of takin advantage of this night alone I find myself roamin the halls, lookin and listenin for the kids. Missin my man as he's with his kids tonight. 

I'm just lost and alone and not discovered how to cope with that yet. I"m used to runnin around like a crazy person and bein pulled in 27 directions at once and as hectic as it got at times; it was my life and I loved. Now the chaos is a much smaller scale and a different kind of chaos. 

I know this is the point of life but...... makes it no easier than to realize that my time on this path has come to an end and it's time to chose another fork to follow..........

Now the 64 million dollar question will be which way to go ?????????????