Sad Thoughts ----Dec. 20, 2007

I sit and think about all those that I've lost as Christmas day fast approaches. I love Christmas and I hate it too. I have an awesome boyfriend who has made my world so much brighter and the love he gives me is like nothing I've ever experienced before. My kids are awesome , no Mom could be prouder. My family is awesome and I love them all so very much.
However it's sad too My father is gone and no longer gets to be a part of the fun and joy of watching his grand kids grow up.
My Step dad , the dad that raised me and always was my hero has moved away from his children and grandchildren and allows the bitch he married to forbid him to have any contact with his family here.
My brother and sister-in-law lost there precious lil girl over 2 years ago and now know the joy of watching her twin grow and the loss of not havin her here.
The list seems endless, My grandma, my aunt, my uncle , my cousin, my neice,my dad, etc, etc and on and on I could go. It seems I've lost so many in my 35 years.
But to Justin and My Chumps; Brittany, Brian, and Christofer
Thank You all for loving me and dealin with the mood swings right now. I hope you all know how very much I love you all and how very precious you are to me.
Jackie, Brian , Cori, Missy, I know we don't get together often but know I love you and thank you for always being there for me.
Mom , where do I start to say thank you, You've listened to me so often and given advie, a shoulder to cry on ect so many times.
I Love you.
And Justin, it seems I've cried many tears in the last day or so on your shoulder and you're always tight there to hold me and love me and let me know it's ok to miss em all but, this year we begin to make new memories as we blend our families together. I love  you baby. Thank You.I love you all and Hope each of you has a Very Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!