Three years ago tonight we said good-bye to my 13 day old neice.
Two years ago tonight we said good-bye to my dad.
So tonight as I sit and listen to those I love ramble about the house, tears again fall freely. It hurts as much tonight as the night I said good-bye. I'll never forget the moment the drs. told us we can do no more for your dad; or asking the drs to shut off the machines and remove them , he wouldn't have wanted them. Those last moments of his life as I told him I love you one last time. Praying that he would hear me.
They say it gets easier as time passes but let me tell you, they lie. It fades it's not first and foremost in my mind everyday any longer but it hurts every bit as much today as it did the moment dad took his last breath in this world.
To my kids , who hurt every bit as much as I do. I love you and I pray you know how very very much your grandpa loved you all.
Justin , my jackass, I don't know what I'd have done without you today. Holdin me, callin me from work, makin me laugh, gettin me out the house , whatever it took to make today as easy for me as you could. I love ya Jackass couldn't have made it without you.
Mom, where do I start , I love you!!!! You're always there to listen .......and you got me purple flowers lol.
Jackie and Cori your own pain over Valeries lose is probably much deeper than my own. No parent should ever have to bury a child. Please know I love you and you and yours are in my thoughts and prayers today . Your little angel is watching over you all.
And Dad, It seems so unfair. I lost you way to soon!!! I don't know why but I guess your journey here was over. You've just missed so much and it seems so unfair. Britt has a license now and a boyfriend. I have Justin and Dad you'd love him. He's the best thing in my life and treats me so well. I'm spoiled lil bitch these days. The kids love him. The boys start driving this year. Britt will graduate high school. I know you're here with us but it's not the same. I love you Dad. I left Mickey with you today. He's been with me since you had to leave us , so today I returned him to you, He'll be perfect on your keys for whatever bus you drive around on those strrets of gold.
Good Night Dad, I love you
Shell
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