Life Sucks--- Sept. 21, 2008

You know I just got off the phone with my dad after 2 minutes because of course the cunt came in and he couldn't talk no more. More games more bullshit more pity party crap more excuses. It sucks and I'm tired of it all. Fuck It!! I just don't care any longer.

I spent the morning with my best friend who recently discovered she has stage 4 bone cancer and all the drs. can do is make her as comfortable for as long as possible. And her biggest concern is feelin well enough to do all the things she wants to do with her friends and family. Not plottin ways to make her family feel sorry for her. She doesn't want that just the opposite in fact. She's here and shes gonna be here as long as the good lord says so, so lets have fun and enjoy it. Lets make every minute a memory.

Why can't everyone be that way????

Someday I'm gonna wake up and not be able to call Kathy.  and it's killin me. I can't imagine the day I can't call her and say lets do breakfast, or the cunts at it again and her be there to listen to me bitch. To tell me it's all gonna be ok. How do I get the breakfast club together and know she won't be there ???? How do you say good-bye to your best friend????

Despite the blow life has dealt her I know Kathy and she'll say good bye all the while living life and holdin tight to every precious moment and even kickin a few asses into shape along the way.

I hug her good-bye today and start cryin and she's tellin me it's gonna be ok. Pretty sure I should be comfortin her not the other way around but, at that ; that's Kathy always there for those she loves.

Kathy , I hope you know how very much I love you and what a very special place you have in my heart. You've helped  me through so very much. I hope now you know it's your turn. I'm here day or night 24/7 just call. I love you girl and we still got a few asses to kick.

And hopefully when the day comes in 30 or 40 years that you must leave this world, know how very very much you'll be missed