Thoughts--- July 6, 2009

I sit here tonight woth so many thoughts and emotions running through my head......

My Best friend lays in the hospital with heart issues tonight on top of her battle with breast cancer.
I had to call the 3rd of our threesome lol and tll him she's in hospital as he walks out his door for work.

My thoughts roam to John, as tonight I'm back to work and not with him as I have been for the last few days even though , I'm not sure he knew I was there as he cried absolutely devastated over the endin of a relationship.

Mom and Rick as they deal with their own issues and lives.

My boys are they start to prepare to go back to school.
Brittany as she contemplates her future.


Tina as she goes through leaving her husband and starting her life over alone.

My dad as he's 1200 miles away and again not feeling well,

Seems my mind is running a million miles a minute tonight. If it stops I'm sure it will be a train wreck. It can't process everything at once lol.

And then of course is my own life...... As I continue to determine how I want to go on after the end of my own relationship. My kids as they grow into adults before my eyes .........

So tonight as I sit here lost in my own thoughts I truly wander what the future holds for all those I love most in my life.

Music crankin on the radio as I try to sort through it all and where each person and issue fits into my world and how I will find time to be there for them all and knowing I will. It's what I do best and hey these are the ppl I love most in my life. I'll always be there even if my mind is on overload lol.

So tonight,
Kathy........I'm so glad the news wasn't what we'd feared and we will have time for may more breakfast clubs and to torture Dave.
Dave.........I don't know what I'd do without you. Your the 3rd amigo ..lol and my strength everytime I need you for anything.


Mom and Rickie Dad......You both know how very very much I love you and I'm always here for you both. I'll listen or cry with you as you two deal with the journey life is leading you on at the moment.

My Chumps........All 3 of you have always made me nothing but proud of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I know you always will. No matter what path in life you chose please please know I love you and will always support you in whatever you do in life.

John my friend.........you know my number I'm here if ya need me !!!!

Tina........I'm always here for you girl. I love you and Eric as if you 2 were both my own instead of my cousins. Always got a shoulder for you to cry on and a hand if I can help in anyway.

Dad.........I love you and had a wonderful time while you was here and can't wait for you to come back. I  hope you get to feeling better soon.

As for my own life...........while as i sit here tonight typing this, I've learned that these ppl are my life and where they are in their lives is where I am also, because without each and everyone of them I wouldn't be me!!!!!!!!!!

I love you all and I'm always here for each and everyone of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hugs and Love Always
 Shell